
In a murderous time
the heart breaks and breaks
and lives by breaking.
It is necessary to go
through dark and deeper dark
and not to turn.
– Stanley Kunitz, from “The Testing-Tree”

In a murderous time
the heart breaks and breaks
and lives by breaking.
It is necessary to go
through dark and deeper dark
and not to turn.
– Stanley Kunitz, from “The Testing-Tree”
I don’t love the term “broken,” but it’s definitely how I felt 14 months ago, when I went searching online for answers, and found Hamsters.
Anna Hartmann is a PT and athletic trainer whose work I admire and follow. This quick bit of advice from her came up fortuitously in my feed this week, and I thought it’d be good for any Hamster whose job it is to take care of others.
This month & next I’m gradually taking over the lead trainer position at a new gym. It’s a new job in the same franchise I’ve been working in for three years, but with more responsibility & hours. I’m nearly 14 months PO and doing really well with strength and flexibility, but my greatest challenge as always is to slow down and not do too much – in this case, not do too much demonstrating of moves for clients. Anna’s comments are a great reminder of why.


Rock on, Hamsters.

“Sometimes the world seems against you The journey may leave a scar But scars can heal and reveal just Where you are The people you love will change you The things you have learned will guide you And nothing on earth can silence The quiet voice still inside you...”
-Opetaia Tavita Foa I / Mark Mancina / Lin Manuel Miranda, from “I Am Moana” (Song of the Ancestors)
Sail on, Hammies.



Another wish for my fellow Hamsters as we close out the year.
As we set intentions to move forward into 2019, may we do it with a sense of acceptance, allowance, & compassion for ourselves – and continue on the healthy & mindful path. May we accept *all* our experiences as benefitting us, even when they’re hard, even when they’re uncomfortable, even when we don’t like it… and choose to find happiness with whatever we’re experiencing – good, bad, & ugly. Easier said than done, I know. Someone point me to this post when I’m back in the pit of despair about some ache or pain. Happy New Year!

New Year Wishes from the Den
To new Hamsters…
May you learn, in the depth of winter, that there is in you an invincible summer;
and to veteran Hamsters…
May we continue to travel light, live light, spread the light, and be the light.