7/10/21: Sometimes, David Whyte

SOMETIMES, by David Whyte

Sometimes
if you move carefully
through the forest,
breathing
like the ones
in the old stories,
who could cross
a shimmering bed of leaves
without a sound,
you come to a place
whose only task
is to trouble you
with tiny
but frightening requests,
conceived out of nowhere
but in this place
beginning to lead everywhere.
Requests to stop what
you are doing right now,
and
to stop what you
are becoming
while you do it,
questions
that can make
or unmake
a life,
questions
that have patiently
waited for you,
questions
that have no right
to go away.

from Everything is Waiting for You

6/7/21: Billy Porter

“That is the gift that [Pose & Covid have] given me: It made me sit in [the trauma]. Sit in it and go through it, so that I can heal it, and maybe be a blessing to somebody else.”

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“That’s what I speak of when I speak of the gift that Pose has been for me: the idea of understanding that trauma is not something that you compartmentalize or disassociate from – which I am SO good at doing – the trauma started so early for me, the only muscle I had, until recently, was to disassociate and compartmentalize and keep moving forward. My trauma therapist said to me – thanks to Covid, I had a minute to sit down – She said, ‘Billy, you have been able, in action, to manifest a life for yourself, while your mind is still stuck in the trauma. We gotta catch your mind up to your actions.’ That is what Pose has done for me. That is the gift that it has given me: It made me sit in it. Sit in it and go through it, so that I can heal it, and maybe be a blessing to somebody else.” (10:13)

4/21/19: Spring Cleaning

A little spring cleaning here in the Den. I sent these fuzzies through the wash in order to give them away, and seeing them drying in all their vulnerable glory has me thinking of Easter and my own recovery and rebirth.

On the path of ascension it is imperative that we allow our shit to fall apart from time to time, in order to be rebuilt. Trying to keep it all together, telling ourselves we fail if we fall apart, that it’s wrong or bad, essentially just slows us down.

We all need to stay functional in the world, but we don’t have to be functional 100% of the time. We need to break down to break through.

Be willing to let go of the “I’ve got my shit together” persona. Get messy.

Trust that if you allow yourself *time* to be engulfed in overwhelm, you will actually move through it more quickly, and return to a higher level of functionality. Slow down to take off.

Shit dies. Stuff changes. Change is what it’s all about. And change is uncomfortable. Allow yourself to do it in an empowered way. Feel those feels, peeps. Happy Easter.

9/25/18: Glennon Doyle Melton

Den of Positivity, 9.5 mo PO:

When I first heard Glennon Doyle Melton speak a few years ago, I couldn’t believe her tiny voice was the same one that boomed out of the narratives I’d been reading in her blog, Momastery. Don’t let the little voice fool you – this one’s a powerhouse of transformation & wisdom. And such a good writer.

Glennon’s words here echo many of the same truths about rising strong from failure that Brené Brown’s research & data do in her book, Rising Strong.

Again and again, I get the same message in my recovery from this injury and what has at times felt like a botched career change from public school teacher to personal trainer – “It’s really all we have to do. We have to sit through those uncomfortable feelings and let God work, and not numb or run. …If we can just let life be hard, and not numb it, and not run from it, and not deflect our pain onto somebody else… if we can just be still with it – we are transformed. Be still.”